chasing rabbits stateside

I have to admit I'm having to do some pondering on why I'm here, making this trip. Right now I don't think I can answer that. I seemed to have reached this strange point where it has hit home that I'm not heading back to the UK for another 10 weeks and this isn't an ordinary holiday. It requires a completely different mind set and use of time. Don't get me wrong, this is an amazing experience, but it involves much more emotional and mental work than I had realised. Is it simply about getting to know more about a country I've always had an interest in ? Meeting new people ? Escaping everyday life ? Following my own 3 month long American dream ? Finding myself (I hate that expression, it sounds so schmaltzy!)? Challenging myself? Proving a point to others? I'm not sure. I'm also not sure if I actually have to be able to answer that question. Maybe I'm just homesick (the horror of admitting that if it is true!). Maybe I should stop thinking so much ! Maybe I should just get drunk !

posted by KP @ 3:05 PM